"Faith is like a little seed, if planted it will grow."
At every still moment, I almost always find myself reflecting on my decision to come back to church and how much it has blessed my life. I am so thankful to my Heavenly Father for orchestrating a way for this change to happen. Some days I look back on all that has transpired and silently say a prayer of thanks to be in the place I am.
I have a great testimony of the strength that Christ provides you with if you but make the tiniest effort to try and do what is right. Looking back at the beginning of my journey, I remember how impossible it seemed. I remember feeling completely hopeless about the task in front of me. I had to change my entire life. I had to change how I thought about everything. I had to give up a lot. The very idea seemed unachievable.
I frequently ponder the prayers that I said during that time in my life, and how my sacrifices were met with blessings. So many amazing people have come into my life since that very first day, and I know that because they had perviously chosen to follow Jesus Christ, they were in a position to be instruments in His hands to help me walk back to the path. I am so thankful that there are stronger people than me out there,that they are so willing to serve others, and that they think of themselves last, but surely not least. I know that without them, I wouldn't be here. I wouldn't.
Neal A. Maxwell said in a talk given at a BYU Women's Conference a few years ago that, during the course of conversion we are well watched over. He says, "Mercifully, the whisperings of the Spirit nudge us along the path in an almost private process. Through it all we will need to be strong enough for ourselves but also strong enough to help others, because there will be immigrants arriving from Babylon—there will even be some defectors from the “great and spacious building” (1 Ne. 8:26)—and they need to encounter people like you."
This road hasn't always been easy, but it will always be worth it. I strive to become like the people that helped me on my way, and I do all I can to try and help other's to come unto Christ. To feel of His love and to recognize all the tools that He has given us on this Earth to grow. I know that My Redeemer lives, and that He loves us. This knowledge has given me more peace & hope than I could have ever imagined, and nothing in this world is worth losing that.
I pray everyday that I may better serve Him. That in some small, totally insignificant way I may feebly attempt to pay back the debt that I owe--or don't owe for that matter (thanks to Him). That He may be proud that I am a disciple of His. I am far, far, far from perfect; but I am trying.
