here are some things i thought:
i hate when things (dirt, very small rocks, weeds, etc.) get in your shoes when you are walking. hate it. i am so happy that dad changed my oil today before i came to work. he is so handy. i really wish that these girls would walk faster since i have to be in the back. i wonder how many cows it took to make all these cow pies out here. i love the smell of sagebrush. i love mountains. i am so blessed. why am i so lucky? i wonder if any of these girls are going to try and run away while we are out today. i wonder if we'll get to see the sun set from up there. i'm gonna miss this place.
as you can see i don't have the most focused mind. nevertheless, it does serve me well at times, and i got to have a delightsome conversation with one of the girls on the way up there about bullying and how it is a terrible thing and how she should stop. she agreed. this is a big deal coming from a girl who, when i started said things like; "i don't care about any body. i don't care how they feel. i won't ever be nice to anyone unless i feel like it." in our short conversation she saw the light in being charitable. i was so proud.
we started to make our way down the mountain and then, just as i had hoped, the sun started to set in the western sky. i was breathless.
it only took a few moments for it to disappear behind the mountains in front of me. but i enjoyed every one of those moments.
to say this week at work was eventful wouldn't do it justice. i'm telling you, there is n e v e r a dull moment. right when you think things are going smoothly, you are jerked sharply back to reality when another incident occurs. and maybe a staff member has to go to the er. and maybe i have to work sixteen hours straight. and maybe i almost fall asleep on my drive home because i've been up for so long. but i love that i am kept on my toes at this place.
i am going to be sad to leave in a couple weeks, but i will always have the memories of my time here. i have so much love for the girls that i work with and all i want is for them to succeed. they have opened my eyes to how much help people really do need in this world, and they have opened my heart to a sincere compassion i didn't know i could feel.
i have learned so much from being here. and i hope that they have learned some from me as well. i hope that all of them take up a new sense of self confidence. i hope they all start to really believe in themselves. i hope that they all realize their worth. i hope they all come to know that they deserve whatever they are willing to work for. i hope they don't ever settle for less. i hope so much that they don't forget me, and they don't forget that at least one person out there truly cares.
